Friday, 26 September 2014

Still trucking 186.

I have had the poops like crazy yesterday. I made donairs (yum), but I used Romain lettuce instead of pita. It was delish!! Only problem was I got the poops. Romain lettuce does it to me every time!

My system has gone haywire in the last couple of months. I have been plagued by headaches, dizzy spells, poops, nausea, cramps (major stomach pain), major blahs.

I have not been eating as I should, but not really bad.

I have gone on an elimination again to see what is affecting me. So far I have learned I have a latex fruit intolerance! That alone has changed my life. 



Latex fruit

Wednesday, 24 September 2014

Doing good! 186 lbs

So far so good. I have cut out all white stuff out of my diet again. No flour (especially wheat), sugar, processed foods whenever possible.

Monday, 22 September 2014

Climbing out of the dark 190 lbs

Starting to see the light again.

Now I have to repair the damage. I have gained back 20 lbs. Sheesh.

Here we go again.

Thursday, 7 August 2014

UGH! Why?

Why?
Why?
I have gained some weight back again.

Do I stop caring what I eat when I am going through a depression, or am I depressed because I am gaining weight?

I think both are true for me.

I have been  having a hard time lately, so I turn to food. Which as we all know...sigh...why? Why do I do this to myself?

Sunday, 22 June 2014

Another Aha moment

 I kind of had an AHA moment this week.

I was wiping off my dogs feet one morning, when a little  centipede scuried in front of me. I stepped on it. I never do things like that. I dont like bugs, but I never kill them. I usually pick them up and bring them outside. I figure, just because I dont like them, does not make it ok to kill them. See where I am going with this?

So I stepped on it. Out of fear, or because I was startled. I lashed out with my deadly foot, and killed it. Or so I thought. I had only smushed it, but it lived. Ugh. I brought it outside, like I should have in the beginning. It was while I was outside that I noticed I had hurt it, that one half was not moving right. Ugh. Should I kill it, to take it out of its misery? It fell off my napkin and was gone before I could decide.

I have felt guilt ever since.

I hurt or killed a creature for no other reason then it startled me.

Tuesday, 17 June 2014

Why?!

Why do I do this?

I exercise and watch what I eat...then bam! Evening happens.

I have to think of a strategy that will help me with my evening loss of control. If I dont, I will never lose the last 20n lbs.

Monday, 16 June 2014

Scale obsession

I have not been logging my weight everyday on my Scale Obsession page for awhile. It was so erratic that I decided to not log it. Also, my scale has been at work for the last month.

I will start logging again, because I found it helped to keep a record. My scale is still not showing a difference, but I tried some clothes and halleluiah...they fit!

All the walking has helped, but of course I would like to see a difference in the scale too.

I have decided to try for another 20 lbs. I feel great, but I want more.  I want my outside to match my insides and my head. It really bothered me when I saw myself in a mirror the other day.

I know I have to accept loose skin, and that my body will never look like it should. I figure that if the folds of skin have less fat in them, that the rolls wont be as obvious.

I watched The Biggest Loser a few years ago. One of the guys there had lost a huge amount. He had loose skin, but he had kept at it, and with exercise had made the skin nearly disappear.

My lose skin still has fat in it, so it looks more like rolls then loose skin.

***

I just googled loose skin. I realize that I dont have that big of a problem!

Friday, 13 June 2014

Frustrating

I have lost over 80 lbs. I have been walking every day for over 30 days now. Many times more than twice a day! My legs are getting harder, and I am walking at a much faster pace. Yeah me!

My scale still does not show much difference. I fluctuate around 173-175 lbs. Oh well. My clothes feel better.

I saw myself in a mirror yesterday. Ugh! I was sitting down, so all the rolls were rolling...

Though I feel better, look better...I still look overweight. My outsides do not match my insides.

I drink green smoothies, and walk everyday. I Dont drink pop, dont eat junk food. I dont eat anything white (sugar, flour, processed food), yet I still look fat.

I need to lose some more.



Saturday, 7 June 2014

Bad Madijo!

Bad day.
I over ate tonight. Then I puked. I have not done that in a long time. I tend to do it when I have not eaten enough for a couple days. Then I snap. Bam!I over eat...but its not even gorging. Its just a cheat that was not planned. No more then 500 calories. :(
It is something I have to work on I know. I do.
I puke something like 5/6 times a year. 5/6 times too many.  But I work on it.
Most times I don't puke. I just say, this is your punishment?!  Suffer.
Why? No idea.
The biggest...smartest solution is to eat properly. Duh!

Friday, 6 June 2014

Resurgo Moncton

Manhunt is over! He has been captured!  My thoughts and prayers for all the officers and families of the RCMP. My heart breaks for your loss.

Thursday, 5 June 2014

Sad day for Monctonians...



Sending prayers to all the officers and their families.

I live in the Greater Moncton area, and we are all in shock.

Tuesday, 3 June 2014

Loose Pants

Sigh...

I walk close to 5 miles a day now. I walk at 6:30 in the morning, (just before work). I also walk after work, after supper.

I am following my diet, drinking smoothies (yumm). Sadly, the pounds are not moving.

On the plus side, my pants are looser, and my legs are getting muscly ( checked spelling).

Tuesday, 27 May 2014

Exercising!

I am walking, walking, walking!
Dont seem to be losing this week, but my pants are getting very loose. So I figure I am losing fat, and gaining muscles.

Friday, 23 May 2014

Its working!

I have been making a huge, I mean HUGE effort to walk everyday. I get up earlier if I need to, to get in at least one walk in.

I also have been drinking green smoothies, and really watching what I eat.

So I am happy to announce, I am down to 176 again! Nearly 10 lbs.

Wednesday, 21 May 2014

Walkin!

Imma walkin!

I started walking before work, on lunch, and after work.

U so awesome Jo! (me)

Monday, 19 May 2014

Doing better!

A little update:

I am back on track, which is awesome!
The Biggest Loser competition is going great!
I have started walking again!
I am drinking Green Smoothies...and wow! Where have they been all my life?!



Thursday, 15 May 2014

Ugh!

Well things are not going great diet wise. Ugh!

Its one faltering step after another. I know I will get it in the end, its getting there that is soo hard.

Ugh...

So I started a Biggest Loser competition at work. I am very competitive person, so I plan to use that as a motivational tool. My hope is that this will help more than just me.

It should be interesting to say the least.


Wednesday, 23 April 2014

Denial

Since I fell off the diet wagon, my IBS has been AWFUL! Bad enough that I have nearly had accidents. I take it as a blessing, because it is a constant reminder to watch what I eat.

When I go over to the 'Dark Side', I get temperary amnesia. I dont look at labels, that way I have no idea what I am eating. Seriously?! Like I dont have it all memorized! Thats the amnesia part.

Now imagine eating something that is totally not good for you...imagine having to run to the bathroom...

Its easy to live in denial, but not when your on the toilet.

Tuesday, 22 April 2014

Reward tattoos!

Holy crap!

I totally forgot to write that I got some tattoos last week!!!!

I am going to wait until they heal a bit before I post pics.


Today is the day!

I weighed in yesterday at 177 which made more sense then 174. I have not weighed myself yet today, but it should be around the same.

This past week, I have been slowly dipping back into my 'diet'. I measure and calculate. Not enough to lose, just maintain.

Today is the day though, that I am jumpin' in!

Sunday, 20 April 2014

Another beautiful day in the neighborhood 174.6

Doing good on my restart, and I could not be happier about that! I went for a little walk, worked hard at
work and in life is gooood.

I weighed in at 174 today, but I figure that is wrong. Its funny that just by weighing myself everyday, and eating better, I feel more in control of my life.


Friday, 18 April 2014

Here we go again... 178

Today is Good Friday, and it is a beautiful one too.  Its a good day to take charge of my health again.

I have not been exercising, or keeping an eye on what I eat. Or I should say, I have been watching, but not 'seeing' what I eat. The only thing that I have done right is to keep on weighing myself everyday.

So here I go again!

Sunday, 16 March 2014

Too loosy goosy

I had a car accident the other day, and I seriously nearly died. When I got home I immediately went to the fridge. I kept on repeating "all this struggle to loose these last few pounds, does not make me any less dead if I get hit by a car!" So I ate, then ate some more.

My son came home, so of course, I needed to eat some more.

I am alive, and I am happy. I certainly wont be happy if I gain all my weight back. Sooo back the struggle.

Saturday, 15 March 2014

I am back, and I am ALIVE!

First, I want to thank every one for all those amazing emails, making sure I was ok... I m not just ok, I am doing great.

An few months ago, I had to make some hard decisions.  I cancelled everything I could (internet), and cut back on everything (food, heat, books, movies, tv) until I could get back on my feet. My son had a hard time with that, so he moved in with my mom.

In January, I got a promotion, a raise and insurance for drugs and dental. Thank God!

As of today I have internet, cable, phone, and most important my son has come back home!

I did not reach my 2013 goal of losing 100 lbs. I was ok with cutting everything down to the bare minimum, but I missed my kid. I have to be honest, by the time Christmas came around I had gained close to 15 lbs back.

In January, I kicked myself in the ass and I lost it all again. I weigh 170 lbs and I am goood!


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